Unwell

My 19 birthday wasn't a blast. I hope my 20th birthday will be better :)
Nevertheless, I felt contented because I had fun with the girls. Thanks for spending the time with me! Thanks for all the wishes on Facebook (a hell load of you), texts, phonecalls, emails, etc. Really appreciated! :D

As I looked back, I realized I have overlooked many things. Made mistakes and I didn't fulfill my own promises to myself.

At sometimes, I felt totally like shit. I don't know who I could turn to, because I can't seemed to differentiate who's true and who's not! Not that I don't trust ya'll, but not many of you are sincere to me.

I've seen through lots of things and am really sick and tired of these. I can only rely on myself.

After leaving (you), I had to crawl up from start! It has been a year or so... Hope you are doing well. I'm sorry that I have hurt you. I know you're always there for me but I retreated because I want you to soar up high. I know up to date you still can't let go.. Just Remember your promises to me yea! All the best! All our memories are etched deep inside my heart.

I ought to be sleeping now because I don't feel well. But thoughts are running to and fro, and my fingers just couldn't stop typing on my BlackBerry.

Oh ya, ddlove brought me to flyers!

To be continued cos' my head is currently in a whirling mood.

Ciaos~
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Thoughts are killer.

9 August:
National day & Meilina's birthday

I wanted much to stay at home today, having the thought of accompany my parents since they always complain that I have no time for them and the presence of me at home was 15% only. But it turned out to be the other way round.

Papy and mom went out instead, leaving me alone at home. Nevertheless, they bought me lunch and went out. My heart felt sour because I do not like being alone in this new apartment probably because I still can not get use to it. But I still did stay at home till evening.

This was the first time I prepared for an hour. It was definitely not a norm for me to prepare so long. I took a long time choosing what to wear, putting on make-up and tied my hair.

Left the house at 6:30PM when I was supposed to meet at 6PM at choa chu kang MRT station. It was crazy.

I was feeling super excited because I was meeting up my secondary school mates! And Benjamin was forever being nice to me and everyone.

He got me my favorite green milk-tea. Not forgetting, he waited for me for almost two hours. And he's forever the same, smiling happily... One sentence that hit my heart was his text saying ''it's okay to be late, got come can already!''

I cabbed and reached only at 730pm. And we quickly walked to ''The Warren" condominium and waited for the birthday girl to bring us in.

Our conversation went non-stop. Recalling back the good old day were beautiful memories in my heart. I just love how our friendship has reach to this point whereby our conversations just won't stop.

Unlike now.................... Fuck it

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